Tracy

October 28th, 2005

10:32 am - Stolen from Chrsitine/Chantelle
A ~ Age you got your first kiss - ...
B ~ Band listening to right now - not a band, but Disney's "The Lion King Broadway Musical" soundtrack
C ~ Crush - unfortunately, none
D ~ Dad's name - Elmer John
E ~ Easiest person to talk to - My Nana
F ~ Favorite TV show - I don't really watch TV, but I guess "Lilo and Stitch: The Series"
G ~ Gummy worms or bears - Bears
H ~ Hometown - Warren
I ~ Instrument - flute and piccolo
J ~ Jr. High Crush - Brett
K ~ Kids - none
L ~ Longest car ride ever - 22-ish hours
M ~ Mom's name - Antoinette
N ~ Nicknames - Trace, SpacyTracy, ChrisTracy
O ~ One animal you like - Dogs!
P ~ Phobias - spiders, heights, being a failure
Q ~ Quirks - too many to list...i can eat more than one piece of something at a time, for example, I eat Nerds one at a time, even though they're exceptionally small
R ~ Reason to smile - I actually got sleep last night
S ~ Song you sang last - Umm... <> a French Proverb by Jean de la Fontaine..technically it's not a song, but we sung along to a children's CD in French yesterday...I'm such a dork
T ~ Time you woke up today -10:25am!
U ~ Unknown fact about me - I lack all confidence in myself
V ~ Vegetable you hate - Asparagus, brussel sprouts, cooked cauliflower,
W ~ Worst habits - being obsessive compulsive about EVERYTHING and never letting myself relax
X ~ X-rays you've had - teeth, shoulder, wrist, ankle (about five times), knee, chest/ribs, lungs, elbow, hand...i've had a lot
Y ~ Yummy food - Sun-dried Tomato Parmesan Bread, Portobello Mushrooms, Spinach Artichoke Dip, French Bread, Cheese Fondue, Madeleines
Z ~ Zodiac sign - Leo

August 30th, 2005

06:47 am
It's still dark outside. I've been awake for approximately an hour. Hopefully, I'll become more of a morning person this year. Classes today from 8am until 9pm. Boo.
Current Mood:

hungry

August 29th, 2005

09:09 pm - I don't understand
My first class is tomorrow morning. Yet I am stressing myself out tonight. I'm reading and outlining two chapters in my TE textbook, which isn't assigned until week two. Something is wrong with me. I think I like being stressed out.
Current Mood:

stressed

August 27th, 2005

12:16 am - I'm So Tired
I have over 40 bruises covering my body. That's not including my back. That's a lot. I think I'm broken. I'm too tired to get up and go to bed, so I'm icing my back. The longer I sit in one position, I discover more parts of my body that are sore. I should not wrestle people who are much bigger than I am. Ever. Under any circumstance. This entry's style, diction, and syntax is not like my other entries. (I don't think I used the proper verb tense in the previous sentence. Sorry.)
Current Mood:

exhausted

August 26th, 2005

04:02 pm
Let's see. I've had entirely too much fun in the past two days. No more of that for a long time. There are moments that I do not remember, and some moments that I wish would not have happened. I'm a giant bruise right now, thanks to Paul. My hip hurts. My back hurts as well. Being dropped on the floor is not enjoyable.

Squirt guns, in the apartment...also not a good idea. I had to change my shirt three times because I was soaked. Paul drunk-dialed my mom. That was bad. He also called everyone else in my phone book, except my house and my grandmas because I was adament that he not. Also, my sister is very confused about the call she received last night.

I have a new drinking buddy, Chantelle. She can keep up with me. And we can both out-drink Paul. I managed to walk over to the pool, to discover that it was locked; as well as down to my car with Chantelle to get my comforter. Good times. I then proceeded to put the duvet cover over myself and walk around the apartment. I looked like a giant striped ghost.

I don't feel like typing anymore, but I'll probably update again later today.
Current Mood:

exhausted

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August 18th, 2005

01:07 am - Only one more week...
Since I have last updated, a lot has actually happened in my life. I've actually written and edited some entries I've been meaning to post, but now I think it's pointless because the entries were about what happened to me almost a month ago.

I can't believe that summer is almost over. I'm looking forward to being back in East Lansing, but I'm not looking forward to classes starting. This summer has been pretty enjoyable, minus the whole not being able to find a job.

Things I've accomplished this summer:
~Had an awesome birthday
~Took four summer classes, and got three 4.0's and one 3.5
~Took a road trip to Niagara Falls with Christine, Christine, and Justin
~Stopped caring as much about what other people think of me
~More talkative and outgoing, but still shy
~Took a roadtrip to Cleveland and Pittsburgh with Christine
~Went to Pennsylvania for the first time
~Visited three Hard Rocks I had never visited
~Learned to relax
~Saw a few classic movies and read a few classic books

Things I still need to accomplish before August 25:
~Schedule an appointment with the podiatrist
~Go to the dermatologist
~Finish packing
~Start taking my allergy medicine, because I'm stupid and keep forgetting to take it
~Print the pictures from my memory card
~Organize my bedroom at home
~Buy filler pages for my planner
~Force my body to function on less than eight hours of sleep
~Remember how to wake up before 11am
~Find and buy a Madeline cookie tray

Thursday I finish moving into my apartment, which should be fun. Between now and then, I'm trying to accomplish everything I've been putting off doing because I've had all summer to do it...
Current Mood:

awake

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July 20th, 2005

11:07 pm - I've stopped spell checking my entries
So I haven't updated in a few days, but not a whole lot has happened. On Sunday I went shopping with my parents for a bed and a desk for my apartment. I ended up getting a futon and a pretty nice desk. At least I'll have somewhere to sleep and study now.

Other than that nothing amazing has happened, not that buying furniture qualifies as amazing. Went shopping with my grandma for my birthday present yesterday. I always enjoy spending time with my grandma. I've also been staying with my grandma for the past week in an effort to show her how much I appreciate her and work off some of my "debts." I've cleaned her entire house and continue to do everyday things for her.

In other news, my parents should have the family room completed by Sunday (my birthday) which would be really exciting. However, I am not really looking forward to my birthday this year. Turning 20 is really starting to freak me out, but I'll survive. I just feel really young compared to my friends which bothers me sometimes, yet I don't want to get older. It's weird. In an effort to appreciate summer and prepare for my birthday I have been spending a lot of time in my pool, and am finally beginning to look tan.

So yeah, my life is pretty uneventful. However, I have become quite successful at wasting my time and doing truly pointless activities. I'm finally learning to relax and just have fun!
Current Mood:

happy

July 15th, 2005

09:02 pm
( Surveys that I've been meaning to do )

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08:10 pm - stolen from Christine
(x) I have a cell phone
( ) I am an only child.
( ) I have smoked a cigarette before.
( ) I do drugs. - only when i can get them
( ) I smoke
( ) I am an alcoholic.
(x) I love cold weather.
( ) I have shot a gun before.
(x) I can not live without music.
(x) I have no tolerance for ignorant people.
( ) I have ridden on a motorcycle before.
( ) I will be in this town forever.
(x) I have been to 5 other countries.
(x) I get annoyed easily.
(x) I eventually want kids.
(x) I have neat handwriting.
( ) I have more than a few horrible memories.
(x) I am addicated to chocolate
(x) I have a sibling/siblings.
( ) My parents are strict.
(x) I love airplane rides.
(x)I love taking pictures.
(x) I hate people who are fake.
(x) I can be mean when I want to be.
(x) My parents care about my grades.
(x) I am easy to talk to.
( ) I hate when people are late.
(x) I procrastinate.
(x) I love springtime.
(x) I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
(x) I love to sleep.
(x) I wish I were smarter.
(x) I am afraid of flying.
(x) I hate drama.
( ) I bite my nails
(x) I have been on a 7 hour car ride or longer.
( ) I never fight with my parents.
(x) I love the beach.
( ) I have had the chicken pox.
(x) I have had pneumonia.
(x) I have gone out in public in my pajamas.
( ) I can not control my emotions.
(x) I have a best friend.
( ) I have moved more than once.
(x) I truly love my friends.
(x) I love to write.
(x) I have had broken a bone.
(x) I love my computer
(x) I am a happy person.
( ) I love to dance.
( ) I love to sing.
( ) I love to act crazy and be funny.
( ) I love cleaning my room.
( ) I tend to get jealous very easily.
(x) I like night better than day.
( ) I have been on the phone for over 5 hours at a time.
(x) I don't like to study for tests.
(x) I am too forgiving.
(x) I have horrible sense in direction.
( ) I own an odd pet (snakes, insects, etc.)
(x) I miss elementary school.
( ) My eye color changes.
(x) I become stressed easily.
(x) I hate liars.
( ) I can play the piano.
(x) I love to play in the rain.
(x) I love my family.
(x) I hate needles.
(x) I'm afraid of snakes
(x) I am a perfectionist.
(x) I always wanted to learn to play the guitar or drums.
(x) I hate the feeling of failure.
(x) I have friends in other countries
(x) I can speak another language. -almost fluent in French
(x) At times, I can be very selfish.
(x) At times, I still act like a little kid.
(x) I have allergies.
(x) I love little kids.
(x) I love to read.
( ) I wish I was more motivated for school.
(x) I like getting stuff in the mail
(x) I have problems with letting go of old feelings/memories.
(x) I hate being alone.
(x) I love myself
(x) I like summer.
(x) I like weekends.
(x) I can type with one hand.
(x) I can swim.
(x) I go to church.
( ) I sing in the shower.
(x) I have never been camping.
( ) I hate cheerleaders
(x) I usually get what I want.
(x) I have been on stage before.
(x) I love roller coasters.
(x) I am close with my parents.
(x) I like dogs.
(x) I like cats.
(x) I can play an instrument.
(x) I have never lived alone.
(x) I have my appendix.
(x) I had my wisdom teeth removed.

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12:38 pm - Let's Try This Again
My last attempt at updating on a regular basis did not work out so well. Summer has been going by so fast-- I can't believe my birthday is in less than two weeks. Turning 20 is starting to scare me, and I'm not sure why. My classes for the first half of the summer went really well. It's weird not having anything that I must do. Relaxing is weird, but I'm enjoying being relatively carefree.

Yesterday Christine W. and I drove up to East Lansing to visit Christine T. I finally got to meet the cats--they're adorable! I'm not used to being around kittens so everything they do absolutely amuses me. Still don't understand their fascination with toes.

Last night we all met up with Mandy at her friend's house which was like a block away from Christine's apartment. Hung out for a few hours...ended up singing karaoke. Was able to get buzzed borderline drunk for the first time in several months. Played with sparklers. Caught up with Mandy. Drank gross beer. Walked Mandy home...ran down the street with my arms up when the street light went out. Got to see Mandy's apartment.

Came back to Christine's and watched television for a bit. Went to bed, but the kittens decided it was time to play in the boxes. Had some strange dreams that felt like they were actually taking place. Not sure what we're doing today.
Current Mood:

hungry

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April 9th, 2005

02:52 pm
I haven't updated in quite a long time. A lot has happened to me over the past few weeks, but I am handling everything better than anticipated. I'm not going to go into detail about what happened, but if you want to know, call me. Less than a month of school left, and then summer classes start on May 16. This summer is going to be a busy one. In addition to taking 14 credits, I also plan on finding a job. This nice weather is making it really hard to focus on my work...
Current Mood:

stressed

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February 23rd, 2005

06:07 pm

So my life for the past few days has been beyond busy. Since Monday, I've probably been in my room for a total of less than 20 hours, which wouldn't be so bad if I weren't running around the whole time I was out. Monday, I was out of my room from 9:45am-11:30pm. Every single minute that falls between this time frame was occupied by commitments. Tuesday, I was out of my room from 8:00am-8:00pm. Honestly, my schedule sucks right now. This is my first moment since Sunday morning that I've had time to do anything remotely enjoyable.

In other news, my M. Butterfly performance was today, and I think it went relatively well. I remembered all of my lines, and the times I hesitated weren't obvious because they fit the scene. I also participated in the class discussion, which was enjoyable. After class, I went to my professor's office to get help with my paper that's due on Friday, and she actually liked it. She said I needed to explain my ideas more and provide more examples, which I knew because I basically wrote the skeleton of my paper to show her.

Other good news, I don't have Friendshop for the next two weeks. I really love this program, but I need some time to do what I want and to study for my midterms. Next week is going to be horrible, but Friday afternoon starts spring break.

This weekend I'm going to see Disney's On the Record, which should be awesome. I'm such a dork, but that's okay. Saturday is also the day the store I work at closes. That means I have to buy ALL of the stuff I have set aside.

Finally, I got accepted to the College of Education!!! I honestly thought I was going to, but having to wait for a stupid letter to let me know was horrible.

Tonight is filled with improving my paper, math homework, and TE articles.

Current Mood:

relieved

February 18th, 2005

08:53 am - Who needs sleep?
Rather than going to bed last night, I decided to stay up and talk to my roommates until about 2:30. It was an interesting night to say the least. Today is a very busy day, but when do I not have a busy day? At least I should be back in time for dinner tonight.
Current Mood:

sleepy

February 15th, 2005

10:52 pm
I talked in my ISS class today, which was scary. I was the absolute last person to talk, but the professor seemed to like what I said. My partner and I started writing our paper about our interpretation of "M. Butterfly" so that we can go to our professor's office to discuss it with her tomorrow.

My to do list keeps growing, but I feel that I will be able to accomplish everything that I need to. Tomorrow is Friendshop, which should be fun. Oh, and I get to almost sleep in tomorrow, and by almost I mean when I get up it will not be dark outside.
Current Mood:

accomplished

February 14th, 2005

09:22 pm
even if i don't speak to you often,

you must post a memory of me.

It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,

just so long as it happened.

Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you

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07:34 pm - Happy Valentine's Day
So I just got back to my room for the first time today. French theatre was fun tonight, we started writing our script. I think I did fairly well on my math test, but we shall see. The weather today was yucky, I'm just hoping it wasn't objective correlative about how I was going to do on my math test. When I got back there was a package slip in my mail box, and it was for flowers! My Nana sent me flowers for Valentine's Day. They really cheered me up and will help me survive the rest of the week. I still have like 100 pages of reading to do, so I am going to start that.

P.S. Look Theresa, I updated 2 days in a row, let's see how many days I can keep this up...
Current Mood:

tired

February 13th, 2005

07:32 pm - For Theresa
So I haven't updated since November. That's a long time. This semester has been really difficult, and it is only going to get harder. I went home this weekend and worked Saturday and Sunday. It was crazy busy. People are so stupid sometimes, and I've given up being friendly most of the time toward them.

Today, a man came into the store, walked around, then came up to the counter and asked if we had any Valentine's Day cards left, because he has walked the whole store and couldn't find any. I simply replied no, I just sold the last one, sorry. Normally, I wouldn't have done this, but people are completely idiotic and I can't deal with them anymore. I also like the fact that people who shop at Somerset, and many of whom make an absurd amount of money, are incapable of reading any of the hundreds of signs posted around the store, except for the one's with numbers.

Tomorrow I have classes and French theatre. I'm actually looking forward to this week, even though I still have some homework to do before tomorrow morning. I'll try and update again tomorrow after French theater.
Current Mood:

happy

November 22nd, 2004

03:31 pm - Why am I like this?
So last Friday I made the decision that I was going to skip my biology and math class this Wednesday so I could go home Tuesday after my group meeting. Then I started to think about the situation. Actually, it was more than thinking because that would be too simple, and I like to make things far more complicated than they actually are.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized that I was kidding myself by saying that I was going to skip my classes. I've never skipped a class, and I can't bring myself to do it. Why do I act the way that I do?!? I seriously need to stop being such an "ideal" person and do things that I know aren't expected of me. Seriously, I am so disappointed in myself. I care far too much about everything and it drives me crazy. I want to sit here and cry because I feel as though I must follow every single rule and expectation in my life.

So rather than sleeping in my own bed, seeing my dog and bird, eating real food, and visiting with my family for one day longer, I will be staying at MSU so I can go to my stupid classes. Honestly, I need to stop being such a perfectionist and overachiever and start to live life one day at a time and take a few risks here and there. Not that skipping class is a risk per se, but it's something I normally wouldn't do.

Why do I feel as though I must analyze every detail and situation of my life as I do? Seriously, I made a list of the pros and cons for skipping classes on Wednesday and staying at school until Wednesday. Who does that?!?!?! Apparently I do. Most people would just decide to skip class and be fine with it. Then there is me. I on the other hand would feel terrible about skipping class and would have a guilty conscious. I have been this way my entire life and do not know how to change it. Any ideas?

Back to studying and working on a group presentation. My life is so exciting!
Current Mood:

confused

November 7th, 2004

01:15 am
Tonight was another interesting night. After countless hours of studying Christine and I decided that we needed a break, so we did we we usually do...we went to Meijer. Before we left for Meijer, we decided to kidnap Dave. My mission for going to Meijer was to buy strawberries, blueberries, dipping chocolates, sugar, salt, vanilla extract, and sweedish fish. After wandering around Meijer for over an hour, we decided that we didn't want to go back to our room yet.

Rather than going back to our room, we decided to take a road trip. Well, according to Dave it wasn't a road trip because we didn't know where we were going, so we shall call tonight an adventure. First, we took Dave to the commuter lot. It was pretty uneventful, except when I drove on the wrong side of the road while there was a car coming toward me.

After we left the commuter lot, we decided that we should go to Lansing. For whatever reason, we decided to get on the freeway and act like we knew where we were going. Downtown Lansing is really cool. We decided that we are going to go back sometime when it is light outside and walk around and eat lunch.

Then we came back, parked the car, and walked back to our room. On the way back, Christine and I felt the need to look at the stars. However, neither of us are capable of walking with our head tilted back, so we kept walking into each other. It was so funny. Now Christine is sending me a bunch of quizzes to take, so I am going to go take them.
Current Mood:

amused